No he didn't just say that to me....

Lord, let me pray for patience.  The jackass I am married to and I have had peace in this house for a few days.  Last night, the weather was so bad many of the employees didn't show up for work, which left him with little to no work to do.  You think he came home?  Nope, and hell what do I care, my daughter and I were warm in our bed.  But, thats not the point.  I have been out searching for a lawyer to help me some how quietly, and easily get out of this horrid situation.  I decided to play along like the counselor said, and keep my mouth shut.  He and I often debate over legal topics, like how stupids aren't given government grants if convicted of drug crimes.  He claims black students are never given grants over even marijuana charges, I held the opposing view that often convictions are based on the severity of the crime, and there often are extenuating variables that may cause a person to get a felony rather than a misdemeanor.  He had me look up misdemeanor online , and I did.  I read him the federal statues that constitutes a misdemean drug crime from a felony.  Hell, I've watched enough campus PD, Cops, Law & Order, and TRUtv to realize this.  Anyway, my spouse's views about the American Justice system and medical system are skewed.  He even went on to debate that a woman is techically over the hill, and too old for marriage after the age of 30.  He said that prime marriage and child bearing age is 18.  That was a bit frightening to hear, but I often have to listen to this chauvanist crap daily.  He calls me old.  Tells me I should know how to handle my kitchen because women are meant to deal with matters of the kitchen, cooking, cleaning, etc.  I swear if he had uttered any of this bullshit when we first met, I would have ran for the hells and never looked back.   Anyway, thats not my point.  So, here I am caught in a rock and hard place trying to steer clear of any conflict with him, trying to maintain my silence until I can get a job and raise enough money to buy a ticket for me and my kids and run away from here and get back to my hometown, or find the legal resources that can help me out of this, and still get me out of here.  So, as was mentioned before during one of my attempts to get legal aide, and resource counseling  I get victimized while seeking help.  I got robbed.  This is bullshit.  Why me?  Not only did I have to lie in order to get away to do this, but worse I had to call my primary abuser to explain that I'd been victimized by someone else, and I get yelled at.  Several days later, primary abuser 1 has an apiphany and asks me one night on his way to work where I'd been going and what I'd been doing.  That he wanted the phone numbers to where I'd been, the police reports of the pending case, and more.  Then to add icing to the batteredwife cake while we are enjoying a quiet afternoon watching TV, he turns to me in front of our daughter and asks "you still haven't told me where you've been going. have you been prostituting yourself?" OMG did he really just say that to me????? OMG did he really just say that?  NOOOOOO way!!!!!!!The thought of sleeping with him makes me sick let alone some stranger for money?  OMG!!!!!! I got up and walked away.  Came to my computer and typed.  OMG!!!!! Lord have mercy he is the biggest jack ass in the world!!!!!!!! There are no other words to describe him.