Don't let them get to you

So, I kept myself secluded in a room, working online and looking for some sort of outlet from the misery that is this marriage.  I heard my spouse come to the door, and I didn't bother to get get up to open it, and I think he as well was going to use the key to unlock the door from the outside, but changed his mind instead, and took his laundry up, and got himself ready to go out for the day. I usually would be hurt that he didn't want to talk to me, or even want to take me and the baby out for the day or even for the ride in the car, but today, I said don't let it get to you.  I have tried everything humanly possible to get through to my spouse to let him know I am lonely, I need us to work on our relationship, but the truth is you can't really force anyone to want to be with you.  You can't force someone to love you.  Its not humanly possible.  You can hope, and pray for one day things to improve but when you see things are somewhat at a standstill all you can say is don't let it get to you.  It hurts like hell I know.  Matters of the heart are impossible to understand, I wish there was some magic wand that you could wave to change the situation and make the hurt stop, and become numb to all the grief and anguish a broken heart causes, but you think hard and realize its temporary.  One day the pain will stop.  One day you'll get past it.  Its harder when you live with the person, but once they are out of your life it gets easier and easier.  My spouse has done just about everything to avoid spending any time with me, or even being around me.  How do you cope with it.  You wonder are you so aweful?  But you hav to tell yourself its not you.  It never was.