When someone loves you the sky is the limit

I was having a conversation today with my aunt, and we were discussing her stepdaughter and her husband and kids.  The girl is not quite 28 and already she has 2 kids and a set of twins on the way.  She's managed to finish a Bachelor's degree, and has a full time job.  She and her spouse live in a functional household and fell in love in college and have been together ever since.  I am so impressed by this.  Its amasing what true love and support can get one to accomplish.  Have I been in love before?  I think so, or perhaps I was just glad someone was paying attention to me, but it started out as a good relationship.  During that time I thought I was invinsible.  I could do anything because when I got done doing my college assignments, and got off work there was someone there to love me, adore me, nurture me, listen to me, craddle me, and I could do the same for them.  They inspired me to complete assignments, concentrate on my job, look and invest in new ventures, and share all my goals with them.  I mean nothing was impossible when you know your spirit, life, and very being is being nurtured.  Have you ever had that feeling that someone really truly loved you, and you could do no wrong, and no matter if you screwed up they were there to help you pick up the pieces even if it was in the sense of an encouraging word, a smile, or a hug?  I miss that.  I haven't had that in nearly 15 years.  The last time I felt that was I was a teenager.  There's nothing like new love and true love.  Why am I sounding so love struck in the midst of a crumbling marriage? Because listening to my aunt today gave me hope, not hope in my marriage, I'm assuming its a wrap on this end, but in the sense that there is such a thing as love, and a good man.  There are men out there that will respect you, listen to you, call you frequently, and nurture your needs and feelings and in turn engage you to do the same for them.  My spouse came home 2 hours late 2 days in a row from working overtime near what I think is his mistresses house.  Should I continue to fool myself to think he still loves me ?  NOOOOOOO.... there's a part of me that wishes and hopes, but the reality is he doesn't even like me.  I watched "Why did I get married" this weekend, and I sat and contemplated the same thing.  2 children later, broke, emotionally distraught & destroyed I can't believe I married such a horrible human being.  He tells me all the time how ungrateful I am, and how I don't appreciate anything.  He has his nephew living here with us now.  I haven't the slightest idea why. I talk to him alot because its nice to have an adult to talk to even though I know he gives a fake smile, and pretends he's a friend, but he's truly foe.  I have given up completely.  I know there are good people out there that will love and respect me.