Happy Anniversary my @$$

I truly can not believe how much of an asshole my husband is.  I mean of the worst kind. So, this weekend was our legal marriage anniversary, and wedding anniversary.  Why 2?  LOL funny enough we had 3 weddings.  One in February 2 years ago, and 2 in April.  Either I regret all 3 of those days.  I can not believe how much I truly hate my husband.  Not only did he on our anniversary threaten to beat me in the presence of his 30 old nephew, but also accused me of stealing his keys to his job.  I am like wtf?  Whats worse is when I tried to report the threat.  The asshole cop that called me back sits there and tells me some bullshit about he was just fussing at you and I'm not going to make a report.  OMG!!!! why do I live like this?  Our child has become a casualty in our marriage.  She is used a  pawn to trigger any argument we have.  I have been to counseling, I go to church and continue to ask god for him to change but nothing happens.  I have no idea what else to do.  I have no money, no job, nothing to financially walk out and be ok.  If anyone reads my blog and can refer me to a great lawyer that will take my case probono I will be so grateful.