C'est La Vie

Its been quite sometime since I last blogged.  My birthday passed, and I do really believe I am an official old crow.  Or at least that's what my shithead of a husband constantly tells me.  I know I began this blog as a means to help others cope with marriage, wedding planning, and parenting, but I have found that I need to blog as a means of stress relief, a way to truly express my frustation with those 3 topics in general.  Parenting is not easy when married to an asshole.  When he is rude and obnoxious to you in the presence of your children, it is hard to believe that you are developing a healthy family environment for your children when you constantly feel annimosity towards that person.  For the past few weeks my husband would be what I would call some what civil.  But please understand that this is by the lowest of standards.  So, anyway he's actual slept in our room for a few nights, and I act as though I am being rewarded for good behavior.  Who lives like that? I'm terrified of delievering my newborn in 4 weeks into this hectic, and toxic environment.  My daughter already sees how her father treats with the littlest amount of respect. His family truly believe I am an idiot.  I get so damnned emotional when thinking of all the painful experiences I've endured its hard to continue writing.  I will blog a completed thought later.  All the best