Courage to rock it out!

So, yesterday I wore something outside my comfort zone. Still covered up, but an attention getter non the less. I had standing out, which sadly with my looks I stick out like a sore thumb. But I don't want to look like everybody else. When I was younger, thinner, single, and far more confident I used to tell people my looks were an acquired taste. Like escargot (snails), or gator, chocolate covered bugs, dark chocolate, my looks are not nauseating, but I can hold my own in a bar or nightclub. At least back in the day. So I went online to search sites, and the same theme reoccurred. Women consumed with hair, clothes, and make up tutorials for losers like myself to over indulge in consumer products for skin, beauty, clothing, accessories and more. Most of the women are young, pretty, and slim. Encouraging us plain janes or awkward janes to buy buy buy! Ugh! I don't have $300 to buy 50 brushes to paint my face. I don't have $600 to buy 20 different primer, concealer, foundation, contour, etc to look like myself. I sure is hell don't have $100 for lip primer, lip liner, lipstick, lip gloss, lip balm. But, I'll say these women are brave. Despite the potential for criticism, humiliation, and more they put themselves out there. I wish I were Brasen enough to rock it out, and announce to the world here I am and I'm happy to be here, unlike me.