Im no Sherlock Holmes

I've been watching BBC's "Sherlock Holmes". I admire his intelligence, and finesse. Aside from the fact that Sherlock Holmes by Sir Conan Doyle was a far more troubling and disturbed character than what has been popularized. He did opium, I believe turn of the century version of crack and heroine rolled into one. He was rude, distrustful, and had a grave disdain for human life. I am no Sherlock Holmes. I lack all the things that make him quick witted, process information quickly, and read through people and their bullshit. I have not been able to accomplish that. Instead I suffer daily indignities. Jabs at my intelligence at the expense of many.  Excursating bouts of anxiety. My hair will be completely white from stress before I turn 40. God I need you. Guide my life. Please.