Non profits are a crock!!!

Yes, you read correctly non-profits are a crock. I called legal aide cause I need a lawyer so I can leave this monster once and for all, and they turned me down again cause my case seems too complex. WTF, does that mean? They don't want to help me cause its just to hard to get involved in helping a woman escape a nightmare marriage, but it's far easier to attempt to save a convict on death row of their innocence? I mean WTF???????? So, I'd have a better chance of getting a lawyer to represent me for free had I been convicted of killing someone? But no if I'm trying to save myself and my kids?  What kind of screwed up world do we live in? Wait it gets worse, so after being turned down for legal aide, then I seek counseling to help me cope with what I'm enduring, and the counselor never seems to be in her office. She won't return my calls, and never seems to be available. And this is another non- profit . So, how do I escape with my kids, and get somewhere safe, with no plan? Non profits have left me to simply die here.

After feeling sorry for myself for several hours. I knelt down to pray. I prayed for God to help take control, and have order in my life. I prayed for the grace to let God lead. There are certain aspects of our lives we control, and some that are out of our hands. I ask for divine intervention for both.
My life is not ideal. My marriage is a failure. My children are smart and beautiful, and deserved to be loved and filled with happiness. I need to begin the process of change. Change is coming. I will succeed in the end.