Ugly on the outside & inside

How painful is it when you know everyone thinks you're ugly? When you make an effort not to be as hideous, that mask seems to scare people more. So then what? How do you face the world when they think you are ugly but u find yourself to be not so bad. I'm polite, considerate, and it does nothing. Ugly people get treated really badly. I'm treated poorly no matter what, frankly I'm tired of it.