HE doesn't love me, he doesn't even like me...I need love

I know it may seem beyond obvious that my husband doesn't like me, he surely doesn't love me, so then what? I'm lonely. I feel depressed. I can't bring myself to try anymore. The other day, I realized that I was tired of being yell at or ignored. I ask the simplest of questions and I get no response. My kids know he doesn't respect me, and I know they barely do as well. I've reached the point of "why bother"?. So, when he says he won't give me money, I don't argue, I beg my aging parents to loan me money. When he won't buy groceries, I find some alternative in the freezer. I give up. When he won't answer your phone calls, you stop calling. When he yells at you for bothering him about kids medical bills, you let the bills go into default, and say nothing about it. So, how do I find love again? How do I get back into the swing of finding someone else and moving on? This marriage is over.