When hatred and loathing makes you physically ill

Yesterday, after a long day at the barbershop and hair salon for the kids to get ready to return to school. I was relieved when my husband wasn't at home. He didn't get back till 11:00PM most nights this week he'd be home before we returned to criticize me for having the kids out during spring break. But I realized that I truly loath him. He makes me utterly and physically ill. The fact that my kids have found a way to manipulate the situation, caused me to become nauseous, head aches, and anxious scared me. I don't want to be married to this pig anymore.