Talk to God in my head

Mid night, another potty run for the kids, another lonely bed, another day to wish I could find a home of my own and get away from it all. Midnight and I am exhausted and anxious yet I know I will be treated poorly everyday until I leave. His brother in law told me I have no goals. Lol!!! I've waited patiently for nearly 10 years to achieve my goal. Happy birthday to me? Fuck this.

I'm failing at life...

I woke up this morning in tears, hurt, frustrated, angry, and literally fed up. This was the worst Easter Season I'd ever experienced. I didn't follow through on what I'd decided to give up. My 3 year old has now become the baine of my existence. My marriage is a complete disaster, and I am begging God to help me find a way out of it without losing my sanity because my esteem, dignity, and any self worth has been shot to hell. I am miserable. Who invented this stupid institution? Why make someone miserable forever? I despise my spouse and nearly everyone around me. I hate myself for allowing this to be my current standard of life. TE I hate you!!!! I hate you!!!!!!